Monday, December 21, 2009
♥ 不想离开这一刻的幸福
从没感觉到或者这么的幸福，自己的存在是这么有意义。总算觉得没有对不起自己。终于毫无遗憾地表达了心中的最诚实。终于被注意到了，不再觉得自己是世界上默默无闻的一个。心中其实一直有着自由与人交流的冲动。我是个喜欢拥抱人群的人，喜欢被爱包围的人。
For the past 3 days, I had been on camp with my Saint Johns squad mates in school. 最令人兴奋one is the other seniors who are already past secondary school would also be there. I have a 几近病态的喜爱to 交流with elder and more 成熟的人。I was so glad that I was rather high during the camp and was in the mood to make many jokes. It is only when I am in such a state would I be able to be very 活泼 and then be noticed. I realise that I crave for the feeling of being liked by alot of people.可以说这是一种虚荣心吧。可是我就是无法自拔。最让我高兴的是能够让“他”也注意到我。他让我觉得是个很优秀，酷，而又肩膀的人。But of course I also know that this is nothing but a crush and this is not the first time I have such a 好感 towards somebody. Besides that, I also finally plucked up the courage to talk to the instructors and some of my squad mates whom I have never been able to speak up to. This camp has made me feel so much better about myself. Especially the game we played on the night of day one. So glad that I was able to spread laughter and joy. 当时的情景很难用言语表答because it never feels the same as a bystander and a 1st person in the incident. Everything came so instinctively and there was no sign of 刻意in it. But this is how the game goes. This game is a competition between 2 groups. Each group will have a chief crocodile, 2 normal crocodiles and 1 crocodile hunter. The normal crocodiles are supposed to steal the eggs of the opponent team and the crocodile hunter is supposed to kill the crocodiles of the other teams who attempts to steal his team's eggs and protect the eggs. However, the most fun part of the game was that the 2 normal crocodiles have to be blind folded and they, including the hunter who need not be blind-folded, have to listen for the chief crocodile's commands to take action. I was the chief crocodile and it's unimagineable how fun it was to lead the blind people. I had to be so exact in my directions and to do so I decided to use the method of _点钟方向 but I got laughed at by my instructor。Despite so, I am happy that because of this, everyone had so much fun in the game though they were more of having fun laughing at me!
I also never expected that I could get along so well with some of my squad mates. The part of the breaking camp was the best of all.
I was so surprised when we were able to do the sediya and senangdiri so synchronisedly. 能够得到the instructors de 肯定也让我很有成就感。那是如此完美的ending. 我也超喜欢sir 的制导方式。He was like 半正经 and 半不正经. I could tell that the others liked him too. Everyone was so willing to listen to him and allow him to lead. I feel that the best leaders are those that can keep their humanity but 又不失威严，让人心甘情愿地屈服于他膝下。I feel that he's one of the few who is able to balance the two.
To sum this whole blog up, the camp I thought was a rather great success as I think that many of us got to know each other much better, including the instructors. I saw facets of them which they were able to cover up so nicely initially. Some whom thought were very serious, I realise, can actually be very crazy and 活泼while those whom I thought was very 好欺负，actually 是 got 脾气de. In fact come to think of it, the fact that only half of our squad, which is 19 people, came for the camp is perhaps actually a blessing in disguise. Because of this, the attention the instructors give to each person is greatly increased and there are lesser choices of people to interact with hence we get to know each other better and bond better as a squad. How I wish this moment can stay for eternity...
For the past 3 days, I had been on camp with my Saint Johns squad mates in school. 最令人兴奋one is the other seniors who are already past secondary school would also be there. I have a 几近病态的喜爱to 交流with elder and more 成熟的人。I was so glad that I was rather high during the camp and was in the mood to make many jokes. It is only when I am in such a state would I be able to be very 活泼 and then be noticed. I realise that I crave for the feeling of being liked by alot of people.可以说这是一种虚荣心吧。可是我就是无法自拔。最让我高兴的是能够让“他”也注意到我。他让我觉得是个很优秀，酷，而又肩膀的人。But of course I also know that this is nothing but a crush and this is not the first time I have such a 好感 towards somebody. Besides that, I also finally plucked up the courage to talk to the instructors and some of my squad mates whom I have never been able to speak up to. This camp has made me feel so much better about myself. Especially the game we played on the night of day one. So glad that I was able to spread laughter and joy. 当时的情景很难用言语表答because it never feels the same as a bystander and a 1st person in the incident. Everything came so instinctively and there was no sign of 刻意in it. But this is how the game goes. This game is a competition between 2 groups. Each group will have a chief crocodile, 2 normal crocodiles and 1 crocodile hunter. The normal crocodiles are supposed to steal the eggs of the opponent team and the crocodile hunter is supposed to kill the crocodiles of the other teams who attempts to steal his team's eggs and protect the eggs. However, the most fun part of the game was that the 2 normal crocodiles have to be blind folded and they, including the hunter who need not be blind-folded, have to listen for the chief crocodile's commands to take action. I was the chief crocodile and it's unimagineable how fun it was to lead the blind people. I had to be so exact in my directions and to do so I decided to use the method of _点钟方向 but I got laughed at by my instructor。Despite so, I am happy that because of this, everyone had so much fun in the game though they were more of having fun laughing at me!
I also never expected that I could get along so well with some of my squad mates. The part of the breaking camp was the best of all.
I was so surprised when we were able to do the sediya and senangdiri so synchronisedly. 能够得到the instructors de 肯定也让我很有成就感。那是如此完美的ending. 我也超喜欢sir 的制导方式。He was like 半正经 and 半不正经. I could tell that the others liked him too. Everyone was so willing to listen to him and allow him to lead. I feel that the best leaders are those that can keep their humanity but 又不失威严，让人心甘情愿地屈服于他膝下。I feel that he's one of the few who is able to balance the two.
To sum this whole blog up, the camp I thought was a rather great success as I think that many of us got to know each other much better, including the instructors. I saw facets of them which they were able to cover up so nicely initially. Some whom thought were very serious, I realise, can actually be very crazy and 活泼while those whom I thought was very 好欺负，actually 是 got 脾气de. In fact come to think of it, the fact that only half of our squad, which is 19 people, came for the camp is perhaps actually a blessing in disguise. Because of this, the attention the instructors give to each person is greatly increased and there are lesser choices of people to interact with hence we get to know each other better and bond better as a squad. How I wish this moment can stay for eternity...
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